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Update!

Sat, 12 May 2007 22:03:03 GMT

WOW! It has definitely been a long time since I've written anything on here. I check my xanga everyday to read other people's blogs and such, but I never actually write. Things have definitely changed a lot since the last time that I wrote. I still can't believe it's been over a year. First of all, me and Josh aren't dating anymore. We broke up September 15 of 2006. It was something that should have been done months before this point, but neither of us felt ready. Whenever we finally did break up, we did it in agreement. It was really all my fault though. I just didn't feel the same about him as I once did. He's an awesome guy, but we just weren't meant to be together. We still talk sometimes, but not nearly as much as we used to.

I'm about to graduate from High School. My graduation is May 23rd, but my last day of school is May 18th. I have 5 days left! I'm so excited. I am so ready to be out of high school. I'm tired of having to do the work, but I know that I'm going to miss everyone from school. It makes me sad to think that I may never see some of those people again. It makes me even more sad to think that I never reached out to any of them. They asked questions, and I answered them, but I didn't witness like I should have. Man, so many regrets! I don't have a job yet, and I haven't had one since this past summer. I worked in the office of Webster. I had alot of fun and I learned alot. I had to eventually quit right after school started. It was too hard going to school all day, then having to go to work and think. I couldn't handle it. But I do regret quitting now. That was a really good job. If I would have stayed working there, I might be a Webster employee by now instead of a temp. I've tried getting several jobs over this past school year, but I haven't gotten any of them. I applied for Colonial, Max Credit Union, Payless Shoe Source, Rack Room Shoes, and Food World. Colonial: They said that I didn't fill out all the necessary paperwork. Max Credit Union: I didn't have enough money handling experience. Payless: I have no idea. Rack Room Shoes: I wouldn't work on Sundays or Wednesdays, so they didn't want me. Food World: They wanted someone in the morning time. I guess I could disappointed about not getting those jobs but I know that GOD has the right one out there for me. I'll just keep applying and wait for the right job. I applied yesterday for several jobs as receptionists at Doctor's offices, Law Offices and at Colonial. Lord willing, I'll get one of them. I'm not sure what I'm going to be doing after I graduate. I had been thinking about being a CPA, but I just don't feel like that's the thing for me anymore. I'm thinking more and more about being a Court Reporter. It's something that I would enjoy. But I'm still praying about that one too. Graduation: Exciting because I don't have to be in school anymore, but scary because I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. UGH!

I do like someone right now, but more than anything, I would just rather be his friend. I don't really understand this guy. Sometimes we talk, sometimes we don't. I hate to admit it but it stresses me out and sometimes depresses me. Just another thing that I'm having to pray about.

As far as everything else goes, I'm just confused. I guess that's the state that I'm in right now. I'm confused about my life, my future, my friends, and church. But I'm trying to work through everything. I guess that's all for right now. Until I write again....LATER!!

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Wed, 22 Mar 2006 00:27:38 GMT

It seems like forever since I've updated, that's probably because it has. I still come to xanga all the time but I'm too lazy to actually update. I'm sad! EVERYONE used to have xanga. Xanga was the thing to have. But now everyone has gone crazy about myspace. I don't really like it because I don't know how to do everything. I wish everyone still liked xanga. It makes me sad! But anyhow, not much has been going on. I'm on Spring Break. I watched my little niece yesterday. Today me and my brother watched Smallville for hours. That is our family's new favorite TV show. I love it. Tonight I'm going to spend the night with my grandmother. I love staying over there. Thursday is Sign Language practice. We had a bunch of new people join; they're doing so good. They were taught Shout to the Lord in one night. The ones that I've worked with are doing really good. Friday we are meeting at the church to get everything in order for our Block Party. I know its going to be awesome. Saturday is the Block Party itself. I'm in charge of sign-up. Sounds fun! Sunday is church. Can't wait. Then I have to go back to school. UGH! The one good thing of thats going to happen next week is our Softball Sweetheart thing on Thursday. That should be really fun. I can't wait to be able to spend that much time with the girls! Anyhow, thats all my news. Love you guys!

Me and Rollins. Thats a good picture of us!

Me and Brianna at Fun Zone during Youth Explosion.

Me and Joshie Poo at the mall during Youth Explosion!

Me and Sarah after church. I love her (even though we're not talking right now)

Amara, Kelia, Sarah, ME, and Amy at a Hayride this October. Thats a really good picture of all of us girls. Its one of my favorites!

Monday, February 06, 2006

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 22:29:22 GMT

It has been so long since I've updated. I guess I've been kind of busy. I have obviously started back to school. I have Computer 3, Honors English 11, AP U.S. History, and Home Ec2. I've had so many projects and papers due lately, it's crazy. This upcoming Wednesday I have a model of a kitchen due. I have a book report due the 30th. I have a History fair project, report, and presentation due February 27th. You could say that I'm a little overwhelmed. Nevertheless, I'm happy as ever. I had the wonderful priveledge of going out to eat with my dear friend Sarah and my wonderful cousin Amy last night. We went to...of course...O'charleys. It was good! We had a good time together. Church has been good lately. We learned some awesome choruses and praise songs this past Saturday. We all love them. For the first time ever, I had someone spend the night with me. I went to a party with Paris, Amber, Rollins, and Amy Friday night. I was in the mood to have someone spend the night with me. It was fun! I'm really tired though. I can't wait until I can get caught up on my sleep. I've been going to the tanning bed. Though I'm not as dark as I'd like to be, I love being dark. It definitely makes me feel better about myself. But I'm not going to keep doing it for long. I've been breaking out since I've started going to the tanning bed so I think I'm going to quit. I need to get an outfit for Youth Explosion. I'm sick of wearing the same old things all the time. My cousin Amy bought this cute green cardigan and a green skirt. It looks so cute together. I'm thinking about buying that as a cute day outfit for Saturday. But anyhow, I know all of this is rambling. My plans for tonight are going to the tanning bed, possible Spanish Class, and getting a few things from Wal*Mart. Though I know my post has been boring, I do have some AWESOME pictures. I'm sure no one will read this because I haven't updated in forever...but what should I get? Should I get a Louie Vuitton purse (spelling?) or a Dooney and Burke purse? Which ever one I get, its going to be the barrel kind...the round one. I like that the best! But anyhow, let me know what yall think?

Love you all, Ashley W.

This was this past Sunday. I did my hair so I was excited.

Amara, Kelia, Sarah, ME, and Amy Sue. I can tell that I hadn't gained all this weight back yet. Amy Sue was extremely dark. I wish I still looked like that. I'm oh-so-gross now. That's my inspiration to lose weight! OH! That's when we went on this "Haunted" Hayride. It wasn't scary at all. It was funny!

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 04:33:58 GMT

Church was really good tonight. The presence of God was definitely there and it felt great. Ashley Rollins HAD problems with her blood sugar being low. I think she had to run out of church tonight because of it. So we all prayed for her. She just broke my heart. I love that girl so much. She has gone through so many changes the last two years, but she has grown so much too. I'm so proud of her and I love her to death. But I just cried and cried when they were praying for her. That's just the way I am though. I'm not that good at comforting people with words but I can always cry with people. From then on, church was great. I just kept crying, which is a good thing.

Well that's about all that happened tonight. There are other things but they don't really matter. But Tuesday night, I went out with two of my good buddies, Sarah and Amara. We went walking around THE plaza and then we ate at O'Charleys (my favorite place.) I had a good time with them, like always. I just feel really comfortable with them. We can talk about anything, and I don't have to watch what I say. I'll put a few pictures up.

Me and Sarah, she was acting a little on the crazy side. But I love her!

Me and Sarah. She was being normal this time but I was laughing my head off, or about to.

Me and Amara. It's always so fun to be around her. She's a good person to be with.

Love you guys, Ashley!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 15:27:27 GMT

Hey Guys! Well I had a really good Christmas. I got everything that I asked for, except for two things. I had wanted a shiny sequin purse and some black leather boots. But I'm going to wait until my birthday before I buy either one. But I'm very happy with what I did get. The BIG thing that I got was this tiny little digital camera. I love it. My parents are great! I've been taking a lot of pictures with it so far. Last night, I went with Amy Glass to Plato's Closet and the mall. We totally wasted our time going to Platos Closet. They didn't have any good stuff. But we had a fun time at the mall. Amy had to take back some really cute shoes from Rainbow and get a smaller size. They were really cute. Then she had to take back a brown skirt that her brother got her. Luckily, everything worked out. Then she bought another cute skirt, like Sarah's, from Body Shop. She'll look really cute. She's the kind of person that looks good in just about everything. Lucky her. About that time, the mall was closing. Then we went to eat at Arby's. It was good. On the way home, we stopped by Goodys to see what they had. We were the only non-workers in there. It was fun. We helped them clean up a little. I have a few pictures that I'll put up here of last night.

This is Amy driving down the toll road. She's wearing the hoodie that I got her for Christmas.

This is the purse that her brother, Jonathan, got her for Christmas. She's just so lucky.

This was taken when we were at Arby's. She was hiding, while eating her ice.

Yesterday me and my mom made pizza together. It was kind of messy at first and we didn't do a good job. But we figured out what we did wrong and they turned out really good. My dad took a few pictures of us with his camera. But anyhow, that's all that has been going on here. I'll talk to you guys later. OH! Thanks for leaving comments. I love you guys!

Ashy

This is me and my momma making pizza. That's one of my new fluffy robes that I got for Christmas. Its soooo comfortable.

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 19:32:36 GMT

Hey Guys! I'm really disappointed by the number of comments I got. I have some new pictures that I'm going to put up. But I'll update you all on what has happened this week. Monday night my WHOLE family got together at my Aunt Jeanne's house. Around Thanksgiving we all drew names and that's who we bought presents for. Monday night was the night that we all exchanged gifts. My grandmother bought everyone gifts though. She bought me a new black skirt that I had been wanting. My sister-in-law bought me a cute shirt from Aeropostale and some matching socks. My cousin Aaron's wife, Lashanda, drew my name. She bought me some lotion from Bath and Body Works and some perfume. It smells really good. After we opened presents, we ate. It was really good, especially the pizza rolls. We watched my cousin Aaron's wedding and then a tape of my cousin Tyler preaching. He did a really good job, like always. We had a lot of fun. I'll put some pictures up from that later on. I'm not really sure if anything important happened on Tuesday night. On Wednesday night we had my brother, his wife and daughter come to our house to open their Christmas presents. My grandmother picked me up first,went to her house and then by O'Charleys to get rolls. They were TOO good. We went back to my house and opened presents. My parents got my brother Polo Black and a tripod for his camera. They got Lisa, his wife, some perfume from Victoria's Secret and a Little Green Machine. They got Taryn, his daughter, a battery-powered riding thingy. I'm not sure what its called. But I can put pictures up later. On Thursday, my grandmother picked me up and we went shopping. I bought something for Lisa and Amy at Aeropostale. I also bought me a new purse, very cute. We went to a few more places before going back to P'ville. Then I was on a search for Sarah's present. I had intended on buying her "The Sound of Music." But I couldn't find it. Then I was going to buy her a CD but I wasn't sure what it was called. Then I went to Movie Stop to try to find "The Sound of Music." They were sold out. I looked for a few other movies but they were too expensive. Sarah's favorite movie is "Breakfast at Tiffany's". So I decided to buy that. Her sister was almost positive that she didn't have that movie. Finally, I took it to Sarah's house, where we exchanged gifts. I wanted her to open hers in front of me. She was all excited when she opened it. I thought I had done a really good job. But she called me later on and said that she had to tell me that she already had it. I felt so stupid. I thought that I had done something good. I even cried. Her sister felt bad because she was the one who said that she didn't have that movie. She got on the phone with my later and we made plans to go out the following day to find her something else. On Friday, her sister stole the movie and we met at Movie Stop. We returned the movie and went to Wal*Mart. Amara wanted to check one more time for "The Sound of Music".Luckily, we found it and I bought it. All the while, Sarah had no idea what we were doing. I snuck into her house and went to Amara's room. Amara told Sarah that she wanted to show her something and to come to her room. She was kind of shocked when she saw me. Then I handed her the movie. It was great! Everything turned out really well. Later that night, my mom's parents came over and we exchanged gifts. We had a good time eating and opening gifts. I didn't like what I got at first but I do now. Then we watched Deal or No Deal. That's a really good show. That's about it. We're opening presents tonight though. I'm so excited. I'll update you all later to let you know what I got. Love you all! Please leave comments!

Ashy

Me and my Uncle Joe Monday night at my Aunt's house.

My big brother, Joel, and his little girl.

My cousin Amy and her sister-in-law, Lashanda.

My niece, Taryn, and me at my house on Wednesday night.

I'm going to put the pictures of the P'ville girls up later. They're the best.

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 18:29:19 GMT

I have more pictures so I guess I'll update. I've been having so much fun with my girls lately. They're a blast. I took a lot of pictures Sunday night at our Christmas program. I can't wait to put them up. But now I'll just put the ones up of our Christmas party.

Amy, Amy, Ashley and Ashley

Me and my wonderful cousin Amy. You don't know how many pictures we took, just to take ONE that we both agreed on. It was hilarious.

Beautimous Kelia and Paris. They're like best friends, I think.

The losing team singing their wonderful song to us.

The girls posing for a pic. Sarah (top left hand corner) didn't want to be in the picture. She thought she would be bright and duck whenever he took it. But sly Uncle Joe took it before he got to 3. HA, She was in the picture. Amara was probably watching TV. AND Rollins is laughing histerically. She kept trying to get up when we took the picture so we had to hold her down.

Paris, Kelia, Rollins, Me and Amy leaning against the couch while everyone else got their food.

That's all I have. I have more pictures on the way though.

Love you guys! Ash

Friday, December 16, 2005

Fri, 16 Dec 2005 20:02:44 GMT

It's amazing how things can change so much in a month. Me and Josh are no longer dating. Things just started to change between us. Besides, I really need to be focusing on God. Before I start to update, there are plenty of things that I want to say but when it comes time for it, I can never say what I want. I'll put up some pictures anyway.

Amber and Me at church on Tuesday night.

Me and Amy (my cousin) at church on Tuesday. We both love hoodies.

Me and Ashley R at church on Tuesday. I love this girl!

Paris and me at church on Tuesday. She's so gorgeous!

Me and Paris at the parade. She's a who from who-ville. They're just too cute! (This is one of my favorite pictures of me and Paris)

Monday, November 21, 2005

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 22:06:58 GMT

Wow! It's been exactly a month since I last updated. To be honest, I don't really care about xanga anymore. But I'm kind of bored so I figured I would update anyway. So many things have been going on lately. Let's just say this is a really weird time of my life. I've been going through a lot of things, and it's been totally confusing. But everything is starting to fall back into place. I was going to tell about the things that have been happening to me but I guess that should just stay between me, my friends, and God. I love you guys a lot though, especially my p'ville girls. Yall rock my socks. Be good guys!

Ashley

Friday, October 21, 2005

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 20:10:52 GMT

HOMECOMING!!! This week was homecoming. It was lots of fun. Today was a BLAST. We had our Homecoming Peprally this morning. It was awesome. It's the longest and most sad one of the year. You can look around and see all these people crying. It's so sad but it's fun too. Then it was time for the PowderPuff Football Game. It was so much fun. In the freshmen vs. sophomore game, the sophomores won. In the junior vs. senior game, the seniors won. OH MY GOODNESS! The senior guy cheerleaders were absolutely hilarious. They did an awesome job of cheerleading though. It was hilarious. I had so much fun out there watching them. Once the game was over, it was time for getting ready for the parade. I went to 4th block, office aide. It was so sad. School is always dismissed early for homecoming, usually around 1:00. Well I wanted someone to pick me up, because if they didn't, i would have to sit at school for about 2 hours, totally boring. But no one could pick me up. I don't have a car, so I'm stuck anywhere I go. Though it may seem stupid, that is the worst feeling ever. I feel so bad when I dont have a ride to places. I don't know to explain. I just feel so stupid and insignificant. But anyhow, I was bored and very upset. I tried to call Sarah to see if her or her sister could pick me up, but I guess they weren't home.

It seems the more I go to school, with each grade that I pass, I feel more and more alone. I have "friends" at school and people that I talk to but its only if we have classes together that we talk. They aren't people that I would go and hang out with on the weekend. With each passing year, I just feel more secluded and alone. I really hate it. With every pep rally I go to, I keep getting that same feeling. I always wish that I would have done something different, to where I would have my place in HighSchool, and I wouldn't feel like that. I want my senior year to be different. I want to make more friends and be more outgoing. I don't know but I'm just really down and bummed right now. I need prayer!

Ashley