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Update!

WOW! It has definitely been a long time since I've written anything on here. I check my xanga everyday to read other people's blogs and such, but I never actually write. Things have definitely changed a lot since the last time that I wrote. I still can't believe it's been over a year. First of all, me and Josh aren't dating anymore. We broke up September 15 of 2006. It was something that should have been done months before this point, but neither of us felt ready. Whenever we finally did break up, we did it in agreement. It was really all my fault though. I just didn't feel the same about him as I once did. He's an awesome guy, but we just weren't meant to be together. We still talk sometimes, but not nearly as much as we used to.

I'm about to graduate from High School. My graduation is May 23rd, but my last day of school is May 18th. I have 5 days left! I'm so excited. I am so ready to be out of high school. I'm tired of having to do the work, but I know that I'm going to miss everyone from school. It makes me sad to think that I may never see some of those people again. It makes me even more sad to think that I never reached out to any of them. They asked questions, and I answered them, but I didn't witness like I should have. Man, so many regrets! I don't have a job yet, and I haven't had one since this past summer. I worked in the office of Webster. I had alot of fun and I learned alot. I had to eventually quit right after school started. It was too hard going to school all day, then having to go to work and think. I couldn't handle it. But I do regret quitting now. That was a really good job. If I would have stayed working there, I might be a Webster employee by now instead of a temp. I've tried getting several jobs over this past school year, but I haven't gotten any of them. I applied for Colonial, Max Credit Union, Payless Shoe Source, Rack Room Shoes, and Food World. Colonial: They said that I didn't fill out all the necessary paperwork. Max Credit Union: I didn't have enough money handling experience. Payless: I have no idea. Rack Room Shoes: I wouldn't work on Sundays or Wednesdays, so they didn't want me. Food World: They wanted someone in the morning time. I guess I could disappointed about not getting those jobs but I know that GOD has the right one out there for me. I'll just keep applying and wait for the right job. I applied yesterday for several jobs as receptionists at Doctor's offices, Law Offices and at Colonial. Lord willing, I'll get one of them. I'm not sure what I'm going to be doing after I graduate. I had been thinking about being a CPA, but I just don't feel like that's the thing for me anymore. I'm thinking more and more about being a Court Reporter. It's something that I would enjoy. But I'm still praying about that one too. Graduation: Exciting because I don't have to be in school anymore, but scary because I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. UGH!

I do like someone right now, but more than anything, I would just rather be his friend. I don't really understand this guy. Sometimes we talk, sometimes we don't. I hate to admit it but it stresses me out and sometimes depresses me. Just another thing that I'm having to pray about.

As far as everything else goes, I'm just confused. I guess that's the state that I'm in right now. I'm confused about  my life, my future, my friends, and church. But I'm trying to work through everything. I guess that's all for right now. Until I write again....LATER!!

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It seems like forever since I've updated, that's probably because it has. I still come to xanga all the time but I'm too lazy to actually update. I'm sad! EVERYONE used to have xanga. Xanga was the thing to have. But now everyone has gone crazy about myspace. I don't really like it because I don't know how to do everything. I wish everyone still liked xanga. It makes me sad! But anyhow, not much has been going on. I'm on Spring Break. I watched my little niece yesterday. Today me and my brother watched Smallville for hours. That is our family's new favorite TV show. I love it. Tonight I'm going to spend the night with my grandmother. I love staying over there. Thursday is Sign Language practice. We had a bunch of new people join; they're doing so good. They were taught Shout to the Lord in one night. The ones that I've worked with are doing really good. Friday we are meeting at the church to get everything in order for our Block Party. I know its going to be awesome. Saturday is the Block Party itself. I'm in charge of sign-up. Sounds fun! Sunday is church. Can't wait. Then I have to go back to school. UGH! The one good thing of thats going to happen next week is our Softball Sweetheart thing on Thursday. That should be really fun. I can't wait to be able to spend that much time with the girls! Anyhow, thats all my news. Love you guys!

Me and Rollins. Thats a good picture of us!

Me and Brianna at Fun Zone during Youth Explosion.

Me and Joshie Poo at the mall during Youth Explosion!

Me and Sarah after church. I love her (even though we're not talking right now)

Amara, Kelia, Sarah, ME, and Amy at a Hayride this October. Thats a really good picture of all of us girls. Its one of my favorites!

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It has been so long since I've updated. I guess I've been kind of busy.  I have obviously started back to school. I have Computer 3, Honors English 11, AP U.S. History, and Home Ec2. I've had so many projects and papers due lately, it's crazy.  This upcoming Wednesday I have a model of a kitchen due. I have a book report due the 30th. I have a History fair project, report, and presentation due February 27th. You could say that I'm a little overwhelmed. Nevertheless, I'm happy as ever. I had the wonderful priveledge of going out to eat with my dear friend Sarah and my wonderful cousin Amy last night. We went to...of course...O'charleys. It was good! We had a good time together.  Church has been good lately. We learned some awesome choruses and praise songs this past Saturday. We all love them.  For the first time ever, I had someone spend the night with me. I went to a party with Paris, Amber, Rollins, and Amy Friday night.  I was in the mood to have someone spend the night with me. It was fun! I'm really tired though. I can't wait until I can get caught up on my sleep. I've been going to the tanning bed. Though I'm not as dark as I'd like to be, I love being dark. It definitely makes me feel better about myself. But I'm not going to keep doing it for long. I've been breaking out since I've started going to the tanning bed so I think I'm going to quit. I need to get an outfit for Youth Explosion. I'm sick of wearing the same old things all the time. My cousin Amy bought this cute green cardigan and a green skirt. It looks so cute together. I'm thinking about buying that as a cute day outfit for Saturday. But anyhow, I know all of this is rambling. My plans for tonight are going to the tanning bed, possible Spanish Class, and getting a few things from Wal*Mart. Though I know my post has been boring, I do have some AWESOME pictures. I'm sure no one will read this because I haven't updated in forever...but what should I get? Should I get a Louie Vuitton purse (spelling?) or a Dooney and Burke purse? Which ever one I get, its going to be the barrel kind...the round one. I like that the best! But anyhow, let me know what yall think?

Love you all, Ashley W.

This was this past Sunday. I did my hair so I was excited.

Amara, Kelia, Sarah, ME, and Amy Sue. I can tell that I hadn't gained all this weight back yet. Amy Sue was extremely dark. I wish I still looked like that. I'm oh-so-gross now. That's my inspiration to lose weight! OH! That's when we went on this "Haunted" Hayride. It wasn't scary at all. It was funny!

Church was really good tonight. The presence of God was definitely there and it felt great. Ashley Rollins HAD problems with her blood sugar being low. I think she had to run out of church tonight because of it. So we all prayed for her. She just broke my heart. I love that girl so much. She has gone through so many changes the last two years, but she has grown so much too. I'm so proud of her and I love her to death. But I just cried and cried when they were praying for her. That's just the way I am though. I'm not that good at comforting people with words but I can always cry with people. From then on, church was great. I just kept crying, which is a good thing.

Well that's about all that happened tonight. There are other things but they don't really matter. But Tuesday night, I went out with two of my good buddies, Sarah and Amara. We went walking around THE plaza and then we ate at O'Charleys (my favorite place.) I had a good time with them, like always. I just feel really comfortable with them. We can talk about anything, and I don't have to watch what I say. I'll put a few pictures up.

Me and Sarah, she was acting a little on the crazy side. But I love her!

Me and Sarah. She was being normal this time but I was laughing my head off, or about to.

Me and Amara. It's always so fun to be around her. She's a good person to be with.

Love you guys, Ashley!

Hey Guys! Well I had a really good Christmas. I got everything that I asked for, except for two things. I had wanted a shiny sequin purse and some black leather boots. But I'm going to wait until my birthday before I buy either one. But I'm very happy with what I did get. The BIG thing that I got was this tiny little digital camera. I love it. My parents are great! I've been taking a lot of pictures with it so far. Last night, I went with Amy Glass to Plato's Closet and the mall. We totally wasted our time going to Platos Closet. They didn't have any good stuff. But we had a fun time at the mall. Amy had to take back some really cute shoes from Rainbow and get a smaller size. They were really cute. Then she had to take back a brown skirt that her brother got her. Luckily, everything worked out. Then she bought another cute skirt, like Sarah's, from Body Shop. She'll look really cute. She's the kind of person that looks good in just about everything. Lucky her. About that time, the mall was closing. Then we went to eat at Arby's. It was good. On the way home, we stopped by Goodys to see what they had. We were the only non-workers in there. It was fun. We helped them clean up a little. I have a few pictures that I'll put up here of last night.

This is Amy driving down the toll road. She's wearing the hoodie that I got her for Christmas.

This is the purse that her brother, Jonathan, got her for Christmas. She's just so lucky.

This was taken when we were at Arby's. She was hiding, while eating her ice.

Yesterday me and my mom made pizza together. It was kind of messy at first and we didn't do a good job. But we figured out what we did wrong and they turned out really good. My dad took a few pictures of us with his camera. But anyhow, that's all that has been going on here. I'll talk to you guys later. OH! Thanks for leaving comments. I love you guys!

Ashy

This is me and my momma making pizza. That's one of my new fluffy robes that I got for Christmas. Its soooo comfortable.